I know I may venture
outside today,
there are things to do
and there is no other way,
but the thought
of human interaction
has my head spinning
and driven to distraction
How do I explain
I am not that person anymore
and now I fear
stepping outside my front door.
Leaving home has to be planned
like a military operation
with the aim of avoiding
any foreseeable altercation.
My route and time
are chosen carefully
to make sure I don’t do
anything unnecessary
like having to queue
in the shop or post office
the thought of which
leaves me feeling nauseous.
I know I cannot continue
to live my life this way
but that’s a problem
to solve another day.
