Trying to focus on
the here and now
while a voice in my head
is screaming how.
It’s hard not to look
in the rear view mirror
when you are struggling
with your own terror.
The future has yet
to arrive
yet here you are searching
for ways to survive,
The answers are not
easy to find
when you are busy
wrestling with your mind,
you close your eyes
before taking a deep breath in
as you prepare for a battle
you know you will never win.
The 50 year old poet 