Here and Now

My curtains are pulled

even though

it is bright outside.

Lying here away from

a world that has left me

feeling unsatisfied.

The thoughts that

race around my head

are seldom good,

leaving me lost

and misunderstood.

I dread to think

what today will bring

while thoughts

on my future

have a hollow ring.

I am afraid to live

in the here and now,

there are too many things

I have to avow.

I find it best to spend

my life in isolation

alone with my demons

and their

frank conversations.